Everywhere you go, there you are...

Everywhere you go, there you are. I hate that shit. It is a theory that I have tried out time and time again. I can travel 4,000 miles away from home, even live in an entirely different country, but the same thoughts and feelings that plagued me in the place that I tried to run away from remain. SO annoying. I mean, maybe it's a little bit better in that the place I “ran away to” …. It's usually somewhere beautiful, and tropical, and sunny, and different, and wonderful.... but those same insecurities, thoughts and feelings, are ALWAYS there.... you simply can not get away from them. AND I HATE THAT SHIT!!! Oh well- I'm sure one of these days I will quit trying to run from things and actually deal with them in the environment that I currently reside... but until then, I will continue to get on airplanes, move to foreign countries, southern states, hell- even the Midwest for fuck's sake- and see if I can't disprove the theory. Okay- maybe not the foreign country move anymore.... but perhaps the South? As far as the Midwest goes, it would have to be some really excellent job offer/ opportunity, because honestly, I don't think I could survive in the winter there. Plus, sun is good..... it makes me happy. It may just be time to make a move again! Hmmm ….